I feel the same way about my code, although I think you’re much more eloquent at describing it. I frequently explain my conception of a software architecture as being like a landscape, with clear mountains and valleys, of varying shapes and textures. The criteria I use for deciding whether a design is good or not is how well it molds to the 3D “shape” of the requirements and the libraries it depends upon.

I once considered making a tool that would let me work with code directly, and display code the same way that I saw it in my head. Never went anywhere, though.